Breast Feeding Vent
Oct 21I need to vent right now. I am SO sick of feeling like a shitty mother for using formula. I never saw it as an issue until the internet and then you get labeled a horrible parent for using formula.
I tried to breast feed. She didn’t latch correctly and it hurt. She wasn’t getting enough food either and was screaming in hunger. Not only that but when she was trying to latch she’d throw her head back and scream. I needed to feed her. I turned to pumping and was able to keep up with her demand for awhile but I can’t do it because to be honest, I’m too damn busy to pump every 2-3 hours. Let me give you some insight.
My husband works 12 1/2 hour shifts 6 days a week. It’s a half hour commute each way. Since I drive him I am in the car for 2 hours of the day. I b asically raise Gracie by myself. I have to feed her, love her, change/diaper her, and tend to her every need 24 hours a day. I also have a dog who requires attention and care. I cook, clean, do dishes and laundry, work on ChaCha, do the budgeting, shopping, and every other thing around the house. It’s my life. I chose to be a stay at home mother but I’m also CHOOSING to enjoy my daughter. I couldn’t do that stressing over breast feeding and I’m still working on getting over that issue which never should’ve been something to be an issue in the first place.
Gracie was doing BM at night and formula during the day but supply dwindled (and pumping is still hard) so she’s on mainly formula and I tried 2 days of only formula to see how her system is handling it. She’s getting backed up. After a day and a half I gave her about 4oz of formula and within 2 hours we had results. I tried a different formula today and the same problem so I again, breast milk 4oz or so, and she had a bowel movement. My supply is dwindling and once it does I’m at a loss of what to do. I need advice from parents who have gone through transitioning. I’m used to her pooping 3-5 times a day on mainly breast milk. Is it normal to not go at all or have a few days in between?
I’m ending this with, if you are going to hold that I’m formula feeding against me then screw off. Delete me from your twitter, facebook, myspacve, blogroll, whatever. I don’t really care and to be honest I want nothing to do with you. I don’t need ‘friends’ or acquaintances like that because you’re a shitty person for judging someone so harshly. Go ahead, call me selfish and a horrible mother but your life isn’t perfect either and there are many things that I could probably criticize about your life as well but it’s none of my business so I don’t. Don’t worry about my life and I won’t focus on yours. If you have a problem with this, let me know so that I can follow through with cutting you and your close minded hyper mom ideas out of my life. I don’t need it.
