On my own
On my own
May 30I moved out and now Gracie and I live on our own. I like my apartment but it’s a different feel most definitely.
Emotionally I’m up and down but mainly down. I am not handling things very well. At. All.
I’m also feeling incredibly betrayed by the people who said they supported me and would be there for me (His family). They’ve been spending all weekend together with his new g/f when previously Gracie and I would’ve been invited. Now we’re flung to the side.
I want to wash my hands of everyone and anyone associated with that part of my life. I want to leave the past 3 1/2 years and never look back. I don’t have any pictures of him anyone. Everything has been deleted. I threw out everything he sent me from prison last night. A year’s worth of letters, pictures, and memories. It’s all thrown out but in my memory it all stays and every time I look at Gracie and know her father doesn’t care.
He’s literally been 5 minutes away all weekend and hasn’t texted or called or anything because he’s with her. It’s obvious where his priorities lie and it makes me sick.
What a tough situation and I too would want to be done with that part of my life also. Its natural.. you have to do whats best for you and Gracie. Screw the other people.. its all about you and her!
You’ll be great. You’ll be fine… You are so very strong, and such a great Mommy. I know everything will be great for you guys!
I can’t even imagine what you’re going through. I’ve been reading your tweets and stuff. It’s so horrible.
Just keep telling yourself that you are better off without him. You really are. He’s such a douchebag. I know having a daughter with him makes things much more difficult. I wish I could help more. =/
He’s one of those people that will hop from girl to girl. When he gets in too deep he will move to the next person who will do anything to please him. You are better off. I know you will do what is best for Gracie and yourself!
You are in such a horrible situation, Manda, and I am so sorry for you, and for Gracie. Randy is a piece of shit that will continue to, as Kasie said, hop from girl to girl. Ultimately he will wind up alone with his loneliness and hopefully plenty of guilt and regret. I know that is little consolation for you right now, but I hope you can continue picking up the pieces of moving on with Gracie. *hugs*
I’m sorry you’re having to deal with this, Manda. I still stand by what a dick he is and I know you will come off a better, stronger person than he will ever, ever be.
that’s utterly horrible. i am very sorry for you. I hope you guys make it okay. Wow.
I’m so sorry that you have to deal with this. It is a truly sucky situation. Stay strong, you are doing a great job for you and your daughter.
Even if he doesn’t want to be with you anymore… or even have nothing to do with you, he has a kid… and that should be his number one priority!
Aw hunny that really sucks
what a dick, I am so sorry
Guys are jerks.. I know I was with one.. Just remember to breathe and take it one day at a time..
His lost that he will be missing out on Gracie growing up.
Manda, I am so sorry! I was in your situation from Jan 2008 to July 2008 (with my husband continuously seeing her behind my back up until April 2009 even though there is some suspicion that he continued on until Jan. 2010 but I don’t know for sure. Actually he started up with her in Dec 2006 so their “relationship” went on and off for about 3 years). It hurts like a son of a bitch. Especially when he wanted to be with her more then our daughter. We have been together for almost 15 years and to have him betray me and throw me aside like I was nothing hurt me more than anything else. It has damaged our marriage so much that some days it seems like it can never be fixed. I will tell you this, Randy will regret it. If not for leaving you then for letting his daughter down. She will grow up with a strong mother that went through hell and back and kept it together for her. While her father put his tail between his legs and pussyed out.
That is so horrible, hun. I am so sorry. You and Gracie will be okay, I know it. <3
I have heard the horrible news. You deserve so much, I hope you keep fighting. Please remember you have an amazing support group of friends here online. We will drop anything for the well being of a friend. Hang in there, we are all praying for you.
We love you Manda, and we’re here for you. Please come back to us.
i am so sorry to hear! please fight, i read over at jenns blog. please get better for you and your daughter. hugs and prayers
jen
AMANDA! Soon as I heard I sobbed, and sobbed. I want to give you a huge hug right now. YOU ARE STRONGER, YOU ARE BETTER, AND YOU ARE WORTH SO MUCH MORE. Gracie needs you, Gracie loves you and you are an amazing mom!!!!
You deserve the world Amanda; and you will get the world… Please pull through this. We are all thinking about you, and praying for you. *HUGS* Please do not leave this world, you have SO much to live for. So much of a life to live, please be okay.
You probably don’t remember me, but I remember you from Lavish quite some time ago.
I just wanted to let you know I sent a request on twitter as toxidlotus. Didn’t want you to think I was some weird person with all that has been going on. 
Jenn gave me your twitter username. I hope you are doing better. Lots of people were pulling for you. 